When I was in high school I thought i had the funniest group of friends. Every time we hung out I would be laughing to the point that i couldn't breathe. It was so good, i wanted someone to record it. For months I talked about the awesome things we would record. How successful we would be. All our problems solved if we only had a camera. Life was always just a step ahead of me. “If I just had this, then I could ____.” Then... We got it. Now, we had a camera everywhere we went.
Only it was different. It felt staged. Every time someone hit record, we froze. We stopped being ourselves. Now we wanted to live up to all the expectations we put on ourselves. We could no longer just be Actually being ourselves was spontaneous and funny. Trying to be funny was not funny. That whole thing fizzled out.
Fast forward 10 years. I’ve been practicing meditation and yoga for 8 years. I feel inspired to share it online. Back then we were renting bulky shoulder cams. Now everyone has a camera in their pocket and on their computer. I’ve learned and grown so much since high school that I realize it just wasn’t time yet. The urge to share and express is the same, it’s from a much clearer place now. Connected to Source, rather than seeking success. I could do this or not, either way I am still myself. Here is my first video: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rZakFVshEIQ
Or, as the Tao Te Ching says:
Do you have the patience to wait
till your mud settles and the water is clear?
Can you remain unmoving
till the right action arises by itself?
The Master doesn't seek fulfillment.
Not seeking, not expecting,
she is present, and can welcome all things.